Well, it seems I am out of my part time job. Oddly enough I was fired by the other support guys rather than management, although it was management that inspired it. The story goes something along the lines of: with me doing all the cia support, it's not giving a true indication of the amount of work that the other guys have to do, and so they can't make their case to management that they need more staff, because I'm doing so much work. Now if you can see the logic in that, then congratulations.

It's kinda hard to write here cause none of would make any sense without knowing the background. But basically this is a job I've been doing for 6 years, and it's suddenly been taken away from me just like that, and I feel rather lost. The future right now is all very uncertain. It's true I did have a two month holiday from it last year, but I never had the feeling it would be permanent. This time it feels a lot more real.

Everyone I know that knows the situation would say it's for my own good. I suppose that is true. There won't be the stress of coming home late and then having to sit down and do the support mail. There won't be any need to care about the systems or the customers after hours when noone else does. But the problem is, I do care. I'm quite convinced I care more about the place than any of the people that actually work there. Which is totally illogical in itself since I have no share in the company.

I always wondered that if I didn't have cia to keep my mind occupied at night whether I'd think about uni work instead. We'll find out I guess. Probably not though. cia was a hobby, different to real work.

So who knows what my future there will be. Vic hinted last night that maybe we could think of something for me to do. I truly hope so.

Still really need to learn to think "whatever"

Was gonna have another rant about one of the guys at work, but I'm tired and I think I'm gonna just crash.

But it's just work. Really. I have to think big picture. It's just work. I don't have to stress about it *after* work, so why should I stress about it *at* work.

And on the roads also. Just "whatever" when people are stoopid.

From Doomgurl:

If I were a stone, I would be: granite
If I were a tree, I would be: karri
If I were a bird, I would be: sulphur crested cockatoo
If I were a machine, I would be:
If I were a tool, I would be: screw driver
If I were a flower/plant, I would be: carnation
If I were a kind of weather, I would be: sunshine
If I were a mythical creature, I would be: pegasus
If I were a musical instrument, I would be: piano
If I were an animal, I would be: horse
If I were a color, I would be: aqua
If I were an emotion, I would be: depression
If I were a vegetable, I would be: potato
If I were a sound, I would be: pinggg
If I were an Element, I would be: air
If I were a car, I would be: WRX
If I were a song, I would be: Dance Magic
If I were to trade places with another person, it would be: liz
If I were a movie, I would be: The Princess Bride
If I were a food, I would be: meat
If I were a place, I would be: Sydney
If I were a material, I would be: velvet
If I were a taste, I would be: sugar
If I were a scent, I would be: jasmine
If I were a religion, I would be: Christian
If I were a word, I would be: stress
If I were an object, I would be: candle
If I were a body part I would be: eye
If I were a facial expression I would be: smile
If I were a subject in school I would be: maths
If I were a cartoon character I would be: astroboy
If I were a shape I would be a: star
If I were a number I would be: 1
If I were a month I would be: December
If I were a day of the week I would be: Saturday
If I were a time of day I would be: 10:00
If I were a planet I would be: Earth
If I were a sea animal I would be: dolphin
If I were a direction I would be: north
If I were a piece of furniture I would be: bean bag
If I were a sin I would be: greed
If I were a historical figure I would be: Neil Armstrong
If I were a liquid I would be: Baileys

1. What do you most want to be remembered for?
I aint going to be remembered for anything
2. What quotation best fits your outlook on life?
Are we there yet?
3. What single achievement are you most proud of in the past year?
Getting my fish tanks?
4. What about the past ten years?
urgh.. um..
5. If you were asked to give a child a single piece of advice to guide them through life, what would you say?
Don't stress (it doesn't work for me, but the theory is there)

*Disclaimer* - Huge whinging rant following:

Well it started off with Sunday drivers starting early (you know the ones - happy to sit at 10km/h under the speed limit, causing you to miss lights etc), but they weren't too big a drama compared to the rest of the night.

The video night got moved to Stanmore, and Striker said he'd be there from 6pm, with videos to start at 8. So I rock up at 6:15 but he's not there. So I ring the doorbell anyway. No answer. Ring a couple more times. No answer. So I call Striker. "Keep ringing" he says, and he'll be there in 20 minutes. So I ring a few more times, but decide that I don't want to be standing around all by myself on a dark street at night, so I go back and sit in my car. Now without a book to read all I can do is listen to the radio, getting bored *out of my brain*. Minutes tick by. Tens of minutes. Eventually at 7:55 Striker, Alex and Wendy turn up. Of course by this stage my mind is numb and I'm thoroughly grumpy.

They spend a couple of minutes trying to contact the host of the video night. Door bell doesn't work. Phone doesn't work. Eventually they attract attention by yelling through a window.

So then we head down the back for fire twirling (which was the only good part of the whole night). I love fire twirling, I could watch it for hours. But the ground was wet so I had to stand there with my bag, cause noone asked if I wanted to dump my stuff inside. Continue to be stressed.

A bit before 8 we head inside, and order pizzas. The video decided on was "Angst" (sounds kind of appropriate somehow). I start to relax somewhat. Pizzas arrive, mine was a Parmagiana (sp?), which was *really good*. Then I tried to pour myself an orange juice. Trying to manipulate a two and a half litre bottle in one hand so I can hold a glass in the other. I squeezed tightly on it, and the orange juice literally exploded all over me. This was the last straw. After spending 10 minutes in the kitchen trying to dry myself off, I went back, picked up my things, and just left, in an attempt to avoid any more disasters. Of course as soon as I got to the car I completely lost it, and it took me the entire trip home to calm down. Now I just want to go to bed. 10:12pm on a Saturday night. Yay.

It's looking more and more likely that I'll need an isolation tank of some sort. Six of the Danios are picking on the 7th, leaving it looking rather gaunt and with a tattered tail. I'm worried that it'll get stressed and starved to death. There's also another of the big female danios that looks like something's wrong with its tail, although I can't get a good look at it because she won't keep still long enough.

Also, one of the angels has taken up chasing the other three. This is not such a problem at the moment - it'll be more of a problem if two or three start ganging up on someone.

The angels have also taken a liking to nibbling the wisteria shoots. The wisteria is a prolific grower though, so hopefully this won't be a problem either.

OK so I didn't post yesterday - didn't get home til 1am, oops :) CIA party was great. I had a chicken caesar salad, roast duck, and a coconut and passionfruit torte. That, and a little wine and a few cocktails and good company and the whole evening passed by rather pleasantly :) Today disappeared entirely too quickly. I think I need a holiday.

1. How many houses/apartments have you lived in throughout your life? Three

2. Which was your favorite and why? Probably this place, since it's "mine" so to speak

3. Do you find moving house more exciting or stressful? Why? I actually like the packing and unpacking, but I don't like getting sweaty carring boxes and heavy things

4. What's more important, location or price? Both really

5. What features does your dream house have (pool, spa bath, big yard, etc.)? Dream house hey..? Pool and spa sound good. A home theatre room with a decent setup. Lots of storage, and places to display my models etc! Also a kitchen with a dishwasher and lots of bench space.

I had a thoroughly suck day. Spent half the day stressing over our servers and their (lack of) backups. We've been fighting a running battle with Dell for the past week to get a working DLT tape drive happening. Complicated by the fact that we can't reboot the server it's attached to during the day because too many people use it and could potentially lose work if we do so.

Then we discovered the joys of LVD vs HVD. I didn't even know those TLAs before today, now I do. A last ditch effort was replacement of the terminator they supplied us with in addition to the new DLT drive, and KH was going to reboot the server tonight. It's been rebooted, but I don't know if it detected the DLT or not. I'll find out tomorrow morning I guess.

Was a big effort to stay awake in Bible Study tonight, I think I nearly fell off my chair a few times.

Time for bed, nite