and I don't think it has anything to do with the glass of wine I had 5 hours ago. We just had a four hour annual owner's meeting for our block of flats. Talk about children bickering. Three people that didn't turn up to the last meeting (that was cancelled due to lack of quorum, but perhaps they put in proxy votes) came along rather upset about a few things, and it all ended up in swearing and name calling. It was all rather unpleasant, and not something I'm used to. Then we had a show-and-tell out the back where the Moreton Bay fig tree is tearing up the driveway, garages and even the building which changed the atmosphere markedly, as everyone then had something in common to be on the one side about. The second part of the meeting was a whole lot more civilised than the first.

It also looks like I might be getting my own support queue to look after at cia, so that'll be kinda nice. It'll just be for the windoze support .. although they're yet to set it up for me.. maybe after the team meeting on thursday..

1. Do you remember your first best friend? Who was it?
Yes. Donna Bonnefin. We were best friends from about Kindergarten through to year 2 or 3. Then she dumped me for Kerry Williams. I saw them once after primary school; that was fifteen years ago.
2. Are you still in touch with this person?
No, see above
3. Do you have a current close friend?
Close friend or best friend? I have about 3 close friends, one best friend.
4. How did you become friends with this person?
Met them while they were working in commed and I was doing my honours degree
5. Is there a friend from your past that you wish you were still in contact with? Why?
Sometimes I get vague feelings of nostalgia when thinking about people I used to know. But I suck at keeping up with people.

Well, it seems I am out of my part time job. Oddly enough I was fired by the other support guys rather than management, although it was management that inspired it. The story goes something along the lines of: with me doing all the cia support, it's not giving a true indication of the amount of work that the other guys have to do, and so they can't make their case to management that they need more staff, because I'm doing so much work. Now if you can see the logic in that, then congratulations.

It's kinda hard to write here cause none of would make any sense without knowing the background. But basically this is a job I've been doing for 6 years, and it's suddenly been taken away from me just like that, and I feel rather lost. The future right now is all very uncertain. It's true I did have a two month holiday from it last year, but I never had the feeling it would be permanent. This time it feels a lot more real.

Everyone I know that knows the situation would say it's for my own good. I suppose that is true. There won't be the stress of coming home late and then having to sit down and do the support mail. There won't be any need to care about the systems or the customers after hours when noone else does. But the problem is, I do care. I'm quite convinced I care more about the place than any of the people that actually work there. Which is totally illogical in itself since I have no share in the company.

I always wondered that if I didn't have cia to keep my mind occupied at night whether I'd think about uni work instead. We'll find out I guess. Probably not though. cia was a hobby, different to real work.

So who knows what my future there will be. Vic hinted last night that maybe we could think of something for me to do. I truly hope so.

Another stolen from Doom Gurl (and InfectiousKitte also it seems)

1. First Name: Kazza .. really .. ;)
2. Were you named after anyone? nope
3. Do you wish on stars? no
4. NO QUESTION! well that's a bit silly
5. When did you last cry? hrm can't remember.. probably in the last month or two
6. Do you like your handwriting? no
7. What is your favourite lunch meat? salami
8. Any bad habits? yeah, doesn't everyone?
9. What is your most embarrassing CD on the shelf? Roxette
10. If you were another person, would you be friends? no.
11. Are you a daredevil? sometimes
12. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? no
13. Do looks matter? In terms of a friend, no. In terms of more than that, I'd like to say no, but in all honesty I have to say that they do count for something .. does that make me shallow? Maybe.
14. Have you ever misused a word and it sounded absolutely stupid? probably
15. Do you think there is a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow? no
16. Do fish have feelings? well I'm sure they feel physical pain, but I doubt much emotional pain
17. Are you trendy? definitely not
18. How do you release anger? I bitch
19. Where are your second homes? Parents; James and George's
20. Do you trust others easily? on one level I'm very trusting - I take people at their word and so I can be easily fooled/lied to. However I hate opening up to strangers personally
21. What was your favourite toy as a child? Cutie - half a pink pom-pom with googly eyes and a pom-pom nose that went half way round the world and all over Australia with me
22. What class in school do you think is totally useless? English - we didn't learn any grammar or anything useful, just read boring poetry and silly books
25. Do you have a journal? you're reading it :)
26. Do you use sarcasm a lot? sometimes
27. Have you ever been in a mosh pit? sorta - it was a bit sedate - Neil Finn in the Domain during the Olympics
28. What do you look for in a boy/girl? Christian, symmetrical, good skin/hair, a bit naughty
29. What are your nicknames? kazza, kazza the blank one
30. Would you bungee jump? probably
31. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? yep
34. Do you think that you are strong? no
35. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? purple (choc chip)
36. What's your favorite colors? blue/green
37. What is your least favorite thing? depression
38. How many wisdom teeth do you have? 2 - two got taken out years ago, and I haven't been back to the dentist since, although not for that reason :)
39. Are you in love with anyone? no
40. How many people have a crush on you right now? one
41. Who do you miss most right now? hrm. dunno.
42. WHAT COLOR PANTS ARE YOU WEARING? pants or undies? Grey thong, blue jeans
43. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW: nothing
44. WHAT ARE THE LAST 4 DiGITS OF YOUR PHONE NUMBER? 7125
45. WHAT WAS THE LAST THING YOU ATE? Ingham Chicken Cheese and Broccoli Duets
46. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOR WOULD YOU BE? red
47. HOW IS THE WEATHER RIGHT NOW? 23C in here, not even wearing a jumper. According to my Weather Pixie, it's 14C outside, 82% humidity
48. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? Probably someone at work
49. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT THE OPPOSITE SEX? hair
50. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON WHO SENT YOU THIS? Never met them (actually I did meet InfectiousKitte once, she seemed rather nice - a little crazy like me, being able to recite whole movies)
51. HOW ARE YOU TODAY? I am alive
52. FAVORITE DRINK? Alcoholic - Baileys and Creme de Menthe
Non-alcoholic: Orange Juice
54. FAVORITE SPORTS? To play, hockey was the only thing I ever played. To watch, well I'm not a big sports fan, but I like many of the winter olympics sports
55. HAIR COLOR? blonde
56. EYE COLOR? greenish
57. DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS: sometimes
58. SIBLINGS AND THEIR AGES: brother, 27
59. FAVORITE MONTH? December
60. FAVORITE FOOD? Roast Pork with gravy, apple sauce and potato bake
61. LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? Moulin Rouge! I think
62. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR? December 25 I guess
63. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT? yes
64. SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS BETTER? Happy endings
65. SUMMER OR WINTER? spring! ha! But out of those two, summer
66. HUGS OR KISSES? both, probably hugs more - less messy
67. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS? relationships
68. DO YOU WANT YOUR FRIENDS TO WRITE BACK? absolutely
69. WHO IS MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? James
70. WHO IS LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? Luc
71. LIVING ARRANGEMENTS? in a flat
72. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING? Pawn of Prophecy - Belgariad 1
73. WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? Toy Story (which is on tv on Sunday night)
74, FAVORITE BOARD GAME? Pictionary
75. WHAT DID YOU WATCH ON TV LAST NIGHT? nothing. i was out.
76. FAVORITE SMELLS? mum's roast dinners, fresias, jasmine, the air inside a packet of cheese and bacon balls.
77. WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU THINK OF WHEN YOU WAKE? food

hrm, it stops at 77 .. i wonder if there was more originally
urgh that took a lot longer than I expected it to.. whoops..

Thanks to Doom Gurl:

MINUTE AGO: blogging
1 DAY AGO: at my brother's place watching Cassandra Crossing
1 WEEK AGO: reading Harry Potter
1 YEAR AGO: sheesh I don't know.. working frantically on enetica stuff I think
I HURT: when people reject me
I LOVE: bright shiny coloured things
I HATE: stoopid people
I FEAR: having my house burn down
I HOPE: I'll get to Europe one day
I FEEL: sleepie
I LISTEN: sometimes
I HIDE: my nice self under a horrible person
I PLAY: when I can
I MISS: ...
I LEARNED: an awful lot of completely irrelevant stuff
I KNOW: some, but not a lot?
I WAIT: for heaven
I NEED: a husband
I THINK: but not often enough, and then only on paranoid type things
Current Clothes: t-shirt and pants (not jeans that I'd normally be wearing cause I went out tonight)
Current Mood: happy
Current Music: Dance Magic - David Bowie
Current Hair: long and blonde
Current Annoyance: KH
Current Smell: nothing much, just my room
Current thing I should be doing: getting ready for bed
Current Desktop Picture: all 12 of my Neon Tetras
Current Favorite bands/singers: Don't really have any favourites at the moment
Current Book: Pawn of Prophecy (Belgariad 1)
Current Movie In VCR/DVD: Nothing there at the moment, although I almost taped Charlie's Angels tonight
Current Refreshment: nothing
Current Worry: having to move offices again
Current Crush: JL

Still really need to learn to think "whatever"

Was gonna have another rant about one of the guys at work, but I'm tired and I think I'm gonna just crash.

But it's just work. Really. I have to think big picture. It's just work. I don't have to stress about it *after* work, so why should I stress about it *at* work.

And on the roads also. Just "whatever" when people are stoopid.

..til the next Harry Potter book goes on sale. I haven't decided if I'll buy it yet or not. I'm dying to read the story, but I was wanting to wait til the 7th book comes out so I can get the whole set together.

Plus it'll be a Saturday which would mean confronting shopping centres which is never a good thing on a weekend at the best of times. I wonder how popular it will be on its first day. I suspect that this one will sell even quicker than previous ones because of the two movies that have been released since the last book was released, and I'm sure more people have taken up an interest in the books since (I know I did).

Went rollerblading today. Went for forty minutes straight. It felt so slooow though - we used to hoon around the park in like 15 min flat, but it took 40 min to do two laps :( At least I didn't get passed by any other rollerbladers, not that there were too many around, but I did pass a couple of others, so that was good :) Have decided I need to get fit, and this is the only exercise I've ever been able to bring myself to do. Plus I was inspired after ice skating the other night to get back into practice :)

I wish I had *normal* parents. Instead I have these strange people that apparently I'm related to.

I was meant to meet them for dinner tonight at a local club to celebrate my mother's birthday tomorrow. We were meant to meet at 6. So I turn up at three minutes past six, and wait. And wait. And wait. Half past six comes round and I get this phone call from a mystery mobile. It's my mother. They've been at the club waiting since quarter past five. So she comes down and I sign into the club. But as it turns out, they've not only been there for well over an hour, but they've also started their meal. This was too much for me. Who in their right mind starts a meal at a restaurant without all the guests, when they know they're coming? And then, rather than coming with me to order my meal, she just says "go get your meal, we're on table 42". OK well this was the last straw. I may have been talked into staying until then, but as it was, I felt like I'd been abandoned, and I certainly didn't want to share a meal with these people, I was too upset.

See, now any *normal* person would have called to let me know they'd arrived early at the club (I wasn't far away, I could have been there shortly afterwards). Any *normal* person would have come to meet me at the agreed time in the only place we've ever met before. Any *normal* person would have waited for their guests to arrive before going and ordering their meal.

I am so pissed off >:( Two hours of my life wasted. What a suck way to end the weekend. And a pity because generally the rest of it was great. Even saw me little brother's new house down the 'Gong.

Tonight a bunch of people from my boss's old work went ice skating at Fox Studios and I tagged along. I didn't even know they had an ice rink there until last week. Apparently it's been there for a couple of years during the winter, but I hadn't even heard of it. Anyway so a bunch of us went along, and I had an awesome time. I haven't been ice skating in *years*, so it took me a little while to get back into it. Fortunately I've done a lot of rollerblading in recent years (ok not so recent), so it didn't take too long to come back to me.

After skating a bunch of us went to Cafe Ciao in the Spot for dinner, which was all very pleasant. Overall I had a thoroughly fantastic night. This is precisely how Friday nights should be. None of this sitting at home alone stuff that I normally do. Friday nights should be a go-out-with-friends thing. Not to mention all the endorphins that get released with exercise, so I'm in a great mood at the moment :) Almost can't bring myself to plod through the rather depressing support mail that's there. Ah screw it, I think I'll just do it tomorrow!

night! :)

1. Do you prefer silence or do you like background sound (music, TV, etc)?
I like background music. Music is better than tv - tv is too distracting
2. Bathe/shower in morning or evening?
Morning - to wake up! Evening to wash hair
3. Sleeping in complete darkness, or with a nightlight on?
A bit of light from a window is good
4. Lay out clothes the night before, or just grab what's closest in the morning?
Grab what's in the closet
5. Hang up/fold clothes neatly, or just toss them wherever?
Hang em up
6. Work out at a gym, or at home on your own (or do you not bother with exercise)?
Exercise? What's that?
7. Talk on the phone, or via IM/e-mail?
ICQ or email
8. Are you usually on time, or late?
On time. I hate being late. I hate making people wait for me (I also hate having to wait for late people)
9. Spendthrift or frugal?
Frugal
10. Thought-Provoking Question of the Week: You work with someone who is not in the habit of bathing regularly. The smell seems to be getting worse and worse! Would you: 1. try to do something about it, or 2. try to grin and bear it? If you said 1, what would you do?
I'd do something about it. How I approached it would depend on who it was.

Watching "The Green Mile" again. Got through most of the support mail and had my dinner cooked by 7:30 and there was nothing on TV, so put it on.