So when you feel like you have no friends, you don't turn up for church or dinner and they don't bother to call up and find out why, and they really don't care anyway, and the only way to put off the depression is to lookup methods of suicide, about all you can do is get drunk.

Ironically the person that did call was Marylon, but unfortunately there wasn't much she could say that could change my mind, not knowing the situation.

So anyway. Might stick on a dvd after My Restaurant Rules.

More crap. Went to the CBS website to lookup the new Survivor, but thought I'd have a quick look at The Amazing Race. There are two online, 6 and 7. So I thought I'd be safe to look at 6 as I thought that would be the one we saw finish at the end of last year. Wrong. Accidently found out the winner of the series currently airing in oz >:(

More crap. Decided the problem with my friends is unsolvable, because they are all in the same family. Which means things they do together as "family stuff" I see as my friends doing stuff without me. It's truly a lost cause.

There's too much on tv at the moment

Sunday
SBS, 7:30 - English language special (last episode next week)
Monday
SBS, 7:30 - Mythbusters
7, 8:30 - Desperate Housewives
Tuesday
9, 7:30 - Survivor X
9, 9:30 - CSI New York (with csi original in the middle)
Wednesday
7, 9:30 - Border Security
7, 10:00 - Zero Hour (two more episodes left)
Thursday
9, 8:30 - er
7, 8:30 - Lost
7, 9:30 - Amazing Race

And then friend #1 let it slip that I don't get invited to do stuff with them because I'm too moody and hard to get along with. With friends like that, who needs enemies.

Figured out my apache permissions problem. It was a windoze permissions problem. Apache config was fine after all.

How many years have I been in this industry, and how many hours did it take to occur to me???

That, and the fact my so-called best friends really aren't, makes me just want to jump out a window (or off a balcony).

And all that guff.
Didn't get any valentines, but then didn't give any either, although I threatened John and Luc heh. Silly "holiday" really.

Had dinner with the parents and friends of theirs at the Tradies for their anniversary. 35 years.

Tasha Yar is in this episode of Crossing Jordan! heh.. Never actually seen an episode.. but it was on after Desperate Housewives.. which I'm not watching either.. really!

My absolute favourite line in the whole movie "Airport" is right at the end when Patroni gives the 707 a pat on the rump and says "nice going sweetheart". No idea why that does it for me. Similarly the relationship Ernest Borgnine's character had with Airwolf.

Wanted to go for a swim tonight, but as per usual, noone to go with. Two people working, three people that wouldn't come if you paid them (and they're meant to be my best friends), and one that finally got back to me after I was well and truly over it. So all you can do really is watch dvds.

Was gonna rant this morning about how much I hate people, cause they totally suck, and are totally selfish, and you see the worst of people on the roads. Then was gonna rant about how *they* are just as likely to go skiing in NZ this year and not let me come. And if they do that I don't think I could ever have lunch with them again, because I mean how many lunches do you have to have with people to become friends with them? And if you're never going to be friends, then really what's the point?

But now I really couldn't be bothered. Had a very pleasant evening with James and George, and feeling like just collapsing into bed.

Grandma Coates died today. OK so she wasn't actually my grandma. But for ages, that's how I knew her, because that was what my friends whose grandma she was called her. In fact, she lived in Melbourne and I only ever met her a handful of times, although I did stay with her when I went down to Melbourne for Hao's wedding, drove her car around town while I was there, fixed her computer, and she called me kazza which I thought was very cute. So it was strange that I was so upset by it all. Especially since she'd been very sick for months, and we know she's going to heaven so will see her later anyway.

She was such a lovely lady, and her rather large family and everyone else that knew her will miss her terribly.

As seen at JC and Bren's.

Rules:
Pick 10 movies that you enjoy.
Pick a line of dialog that you like.
As people guess the film, strike out that entry.
NO cheating

1. x never ever marks the spot - JC and Kirk
2. morning. morning. morning. morning. morning. morning. oh look! Howard's being eaten - Dave
3. Mawwiage. Mawwiage is wot bwings us togeva today. - JC and Kirk
4. This one's gonna be close
5. Give me the child. Through dangers untold and hardships unnumbered, I have fought my way here to the castle beyond the goblin city, to take back the child that you have stolen. - JC and Kirk (actually I should have used "Just fear me, love me, do as I say, and I will be your *slave*" .. would you have gotten that?)
6. Don't you two *read* ? - Kirk
7. There's no such thing as fairies - Dennis
8. It's not a job, it's an adventure - Dave
9. Men and women can never be friends, because the sex part always gets in the way - JC and Kirk
10. You can't marry someone when you're in love with someone else - Mushroom

1. What did you do in 2004 that you'd never done before?
   Met someone whose blog I read
2. Did you keep your new year's resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
   This year I made up a Bible reading plan that I managed to stick to, for the first time ever. I read the entire New Testament and a third of the Old Testament. For next year I'll be continuing my effort to be more relaxed and happy
3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
   Yep, Jodi at work
4. Did anyone close to you die?
   No
5. What countries did you visit?
   USA and Canada
6. What would you like to have in 2005 that you lacked in 2004?
   A boyfriend
7. What date(s) from 2004 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
   Probably the 16th May, which was when we left for the USA (the day is also the anniversary of when I settled this place, and my friends got married, and I hooked up with Vic, and my brother moved into his place).
8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
   Probably switching over to w2k3/active directory
9. What was your biggest failure?
   File server disaster, with a corrupted file system and hours of down time
10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
    I got sick twice, once probably from some old cheese, not sure about the other time. No flus which was awesome. Only real injury was a snowboarder wiping me out at the snow
11. What was the best thing you bought?
    My Sony DSC-F828 camera
12. Whose behaviour merited celebration?
    um..
13. Whose behaviour made you appalled and depressed?
    Probably my father's
14. Where did most of your money go?
    On the trip to the USA
15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
    Probably the trip to the USA :)
16. What song will always remind you of 2004?
    Double Trouble
17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
    Happier or Sadder? - happier I think
    Thinner or Fatter? - much the same, maybe slightly fatter
    Richer or Poorer? - much the same, the trip to the USA kept me fairly even
    
18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
    Sleeping
19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
    Complaining
20. How will you be spending Christmas?
    This year or next year? Silly question to ask for an end of year quiz
21. Who deleted question 21?
    It wasn't me I didn't do it
22. Did you fall in love in 2004?
    If you count crushes on Jason Isaacs and Dave.. otherwise no
23. How many one-night stands?
    None
24. What was your favorite TV program?
    Survivor or ER
25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
    No
26. What was the best book you read?
    Probably Prisoner of Azkaban, although I'd read that twice before
27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
    Yvonne's keyboard
28. What did you want and get?
    A new camera
29. What did you want and not get?
    A dvd recorder
30. What was your favorite film of this year?
    Peter Pan
31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
    Went down to me little brother's place for lunch, then went to a dance party in town. I turned 31
32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
    A boyfriend
33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2004?
    Jeans and a tshirt
34. What kept you sane?
    dvds
35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
    Jason Isaacs
36. What political issue stirred you the most?
    The US election.. even more than our own federal election, go figure :)
37. Who did you miss?
    Dennis and JC, they don't post nearly as often as they used to :(
38. Who was the best new person you met?
    Dave!
39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2004.
    um..
40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year.
    "Something gotta go wrong cause I'm feeling way too damn good" - story of my life - whenever I'm feeling happy something will come along to make me feel grumpy

So another year over. Another year older. I spent far too long rereading this years blog entries to get highlights and lowlights of the year. Strangely there were more highlights than lowlights. The lowlights tended to be just ordinary day-to-day rants. The only big disasters I had this year were the file server disaster, where we lost files and had daytime downtime for hours; and Faiele in Italy stole a big chunk of my money on ebay, and ebay refused to help.

At work, we upgraded our domain to windows 2003 with active directory, which we managed to acheive without too many dramas. I setup quite a few servers during the year, but my favourite was later in the year when I migrated our main production notes web server to new hardware in a total of an hour and a half from pulling out of the box to being live. We also got audited while I was overseas, and felt very happy that I'd done detailed documentation for all the servers before I left, which probably saved my boss. Lunches with Jim and John became the norm this year, as it was a lot easier to coordinate four people with Luc in our office than when he was elsewhere.

My cia work mostly dried up, after they hired Nhat to take care of Gamera. He had his trial by fire shortly after he started, having to rebuild the machine in the middle of the night when there was a multiple disk failure in the raid array. The relief of me not having to stress about the box anymore was enourmous.

My lego obsession kicked into high gear this year, with the completion of the classic space lego collection, all the Harry Potter sets, tonnes of plain bricks for making mosaics (of which I made four instructed ones and four of my own design), and later in the year getting Yoda and the Imperial Star Destroyer.

I had several fish losses during the year, but didn't really replace any. I did however get a tankful of baby kribs which was very exciting.

I saw David Bowie in concert which was phenomenal. Been waiting fourteen years for the chance, and it was very moving for me. Also saw the Lion King stage show which was fantastic. Quidam was good but not as good as Alegria.

Crushes included a massive one on Jason Isaacs, a little one on Dave, and the ongoing one on Jim. No prospects of any boyfriends tho.

Three decent trips this year - a short one at Easter to my uncle's wedding in Queensland, a six week adventure to the USA and Canada, and a three day skiing trip in September. The USA trip was amazing, probably the biggest highlight of my year. I took 3800 photos and movies on my wonderful new Sony camera, which I still haven't finished sorting out!!

The weather this year went Summer, Autumn, Autumn, skipped winter, went straight onto Summer, and now Spring.

And now I have to get ready for tonight's general partying. Happy new year to everyone!! :):)