12.5.25
Talked to Mum after work. It's going to cost like six thousand dollars to swap out me for David. Not to mention the EPIC STRESS she's now going through having to deal with it all with the travel agent. I'll be EPIC PISSED if the surgery doesn't go ahead until after I was due to get back. Like, utterly ropable. Feeling hopeless and depressed about it all. Mum is feeling stressed out of her mind dealing with it all, upset that I won't be able to go, upset that I've put in all this work for nothing. David is stressed about taking a month off at such short notice. Oh yeah and there's a breast cancer diagnosis in there somewhere to be upset about too.
13.5.25
Took forever to get to sleep stressing about All The Things. I'm going to be so upset if I miss out on my holiday only to have surgery scheduled for after 16 June - after I was due to get back. Talked to Mum again after work. She's a little less stressed today, but all her church work is piling on which isn't helping. Did a bit of reading and writing up of pros and cons of different treatment options.
14.5.25
Took forever to get to sleep stressing about All The Things. At one point I wondered about the sanity of chopping off a whole heap of perfectly good flesh. I mean what did it ever do wrong? Depressed/stressed tonight. I need to make a decision. Everything is awful. Oh I also got results of MRI - actually pretty good apparently.
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