Results tagged “Depression” from Kazza the Blank One
Had a fairly decent weekend last weekend. Got quite a few things done on the todo list, including renewing my domain names (kazza.id.au has been in existence for fourteen years today!), vacuuming and cleaning out the pool, washing the sheets, installing windows 10 on my little laptop (and the GPS software still works hurrah!), cleaning the kitchen, some fish tank work, food shopping and cooking. Didn't do the house vacuuming though.
In between we had our work ball, which I'll get some photos online for eventually.
This week was a very strange week. We had several farewell events for the Chrises including a long lunch on Wednesday. Gonna miss them. It also seems certain that we will lose literally the best bar in Canberra. And our carpark. All very depressing. Got some work done in between, although wasn't terribly motivated.
I also got grumpy this week at Insight Vacations who have been ignoring my emails. And at myself for not registering for the last Ingress Anomoly - which means the hundreds of jarvises, adas, cubes, bursters etc that I donated to the cause will have been for nothing :(
Our pool froze over twice during the week. And yesterday the power tripped early in the morning which means the fish tank heaters didn't work all day, and we lost some fish in the smallest tank :(
Have been spending mornings scanning mum's photos. Two weeks to scan each album, give or take. So one down this morning, four more to go until the next swap-meet when I can get some more.
And I have this odd sort of feeling that I'm coming down with something.
Lately I seem to be feeling a constant low level stress/depression (that regularly flares up to much stronger versions). Work is certainly not helping. The heat over the last couple of weeks. Lack of sleep. Body cycles that should be four weeks being only three. Food. Blood pressure. Missing jigsaw piece from a new and expensive jigsaw. Bank fees. Housework. Vacuuming. Trivia nights to prepare for. A computer that hasn't installed updates since a cancelled upgrade to Windows 10 last year (other than Security Essentials updates) and doesn't seem to have the ability to either. iPhone batteries that don't last the day. Clutter. Dust. Holiday finances. Weight. Deteriorating eyesight.
There just doesn't seem to be enough *time* in the world. Last night was cool off in the pool, cook and eat dinner while watching House, a walk with Chris and just a little bit of time on the jigsaw. And then it's bed time. I didn't get any computer time. I still haven't even *seen* most of my last holiday photos, let alone geotag them. Tonight was better, but had to fight with my computer for too long after it started spazzing out. Got a bit of trivia night stuff done at least. A whole half hour. Yay.
Saturday morning I gave away the fridge from the caravan that never worked on 240V. One less piece of clutter in the house!
Then we headed out to the club. I chatted to Chris and helped de-nail fence palings in the morning, and helped with the working bee (more de-nailing of fence palings) in the afternoon.
Came home and were all set for a quiet night in, started watching Back to the Future, then Kit invited us down. Serena had brought Jenga Quake. Which was my third variation of Jenga this week. At work they have an original set. At the club there's a much bigger set. Quake has plastic bricks which have less friction so are a little easier to pull out. But we didn't use the quake platform cause that's just silly. Stayed up a bit too late annoying the neighbours by singing along to seventies music.
Today I barely did anything on the todo list. Best I could manage was to clean the kitchen. Did our food shopping, cooked/ate dinner, went for walkies with Chrissie then finished watching Back to the Future.
Only just barely survived the week. Weird networking issues scuttled my firewall work which just made the whole team look bad.
Tuesday went for a short walk with Chrissie. We were going to walk last night but I forgot.
On Wednesday I cleared out years of old project paperwork out of my desk drawers.
Thursday we went over to Kit's after drinks.
I also solved the GCHQ nonogram quite easily (it became pretty obvious what it was fairly early on) and have been playing nonogram puzzles online.
And starting to pick up speed on the 5000 piece jigsaw.
I had a crap day today. Epic fail.
So here's a photo of me at the controls of an A380
Friday night we took Chrissie out for her birthday - she now joins me in knowing the meaning of life, the universe, and everything. We went to the Dumpling Inn and had some of our favourites (shredded beef peking style and three cup wine chicken) and some dumplings (still can't compete with Din Tai Fung). Went back to her place afterwards and Kit came down as well.
Lacked motivation this weekend. Had a big todo list, but barely any of it got done.
I did manage to clean the kitchen and the spare room. And did some washing.
Other than that, about ten hours on the jigsaw. And all I've got to show for it is some sorting (about three hours), the edge, and a tiny bit of the jigsaw proper.
Well, also went for a longish (well it took ages, but that was cause of the kid and the dogs being special, it was actually only 4.85km) walk with Chris. And the sweetie cooked dinner and did *heaps* of work in the garden.
My Sunday night depression started last night when we got home. Too much go go go and then a sudden deflation. And the weekend was half over and I hadn't been home for any of it.
So I really didn't feel like doing much today. In the end I alternated between doing holiday photos and a jigsaw.
The sweetie on the other hand spent *hours* cleaning the bathroom, toilet and ensuite, as well as mowing the lawn and doing more garden tidying. Bestest sweetie *ever* ! :)
Tonight I cooked up a big batch of bolognase for the week's lunches.
One year ago today we went up Taipei 101, wandered through Huashan 1914 Creative Park, and I wandered through Guanghua Electronics Plaza.
Friday night was swim night, and supper at EffanC's (mmm beef stew).
Saturday morning we headed out to the club.
Whereupon I noticed we had lost our rear number plate :(:(:( We'd noticed it had been loose once before, but this time it was gone completely. Called Canberra Connect and various police to report it. Super epic pissed off, because I really liked that number plate and now we're going to lose it.
Then we did a bit of work scrubbing down the surface of our caravan which was starting to get mouldy.
Whereupon I sliced my finger open on a screw protuding from inside the caravan.
Yeah I pretty much lost it. We'd been planning to stay the night, but I was feeling too miserable so we just came home. We looked and looked for the number plate but didn't see it.
Went over to Kit's after dinner though which was nice.
Today, aside from finishing a jigsaw I started last night, didn't do much until we headed out again to look for the number plate. Fifty kilometres of driving around Canberra looking for it, but never found it :(:(:(:( Will give it a couple of days in the hope that someone will hand it in before applying for a new one.
Did some food shopping them came home. Watched Guardians of the Galaxy. Not bad. Now it must be bed time.
Oh also, I've uploaded a stack of images to old blog posts back to January, so if you could be bothered (I'm sure only mum will), there's pics in the archives.
I talked to the little brother last night. And I thought *I* was stressed about everything. Not only does he have mum's house to worry about getting stuff out of, but a close friend of his has decided to sell his house as well. Note this friend keeps an entire railway museum in his house, and so it's in a much worse state of clutter than this place. And David can't get away from work to be able to actually spend any time here so he's not in a good way.
Meanwhile I'm just depressed about the whole thing. I was counting on having many more months to take my time to try and find new owners for things rather than seeing the whole lot just thrown out, but that idea has gone out the window.
Mum on the other hand is all excited about moving to a new place and wants to sell this house as soon as possible and throw everything out and just go.
So she's happy, but we're in a mess.
Anyway, I've put up photos of everything we've documented so far - http://kazza.cia.com.au/freecycle-como/ and there is much more to come. I've only had two responses on Freecycle, but at least they're going to take a couple of things..
Please pass this around and help me clear this place out by taking things (I can bring smaller stuff back to Canberra, but if you know people in Sydney please pass this on!)
Also, public transport sux.. (well people suck really)..
On Friday night I came home feeling a bit depressed because instead of being able to relax I had to do housework, because I have no other night to do it :/
Saturday morning I went the opposite direction to my usual weekend drive - this time to Junee to visit the little brother. I asked Google Maps where to go, and it sent me off the Hume at Jugiong and up to Cootamundra. It was a nice drive, although the roads weren't the best. And canola sure is yellow.
David's house is very nice. But smaller than their place at Picton, which could make things .. *interesting* to try and fit it all in.
We rearranged some furniture and I sorted out his blurays and put them in a cupboard, and just hung out. Watched the election coverage until we got too depressed, then watched Deathly Hallows on tv.
I woke up at 6:20 as per usual and couldn't get back to sleep. Hung out doing puzzles on the lounge room floor (no lounges yet).
Just before lunch went and looked at one of Junee's tourist attractions - the licorice and chocolate factory. But we were (David was! ;) ) running late so didn't get much of a look. Got some white chocolate rocky road (although almost didn't because the service was pretty slow and we were late for lunch).
Then to lunch at the Junee Hotel for their $10 Sunday roast - pork - yum! Didn't need dinner (I might have had a couple of slices of bacon, shh don't tell anyone).
David went off to work, and I came home.
Felt a bit lost when I got home. Tired and feeling like I really need a whole weekend at home. Was feeling pretty blah tonight (it's Sunday after all), so Stu suggested putting on some music. So I put on some John Williams, because that always cheers me up. Used the hour to get my blog more or less up to date.
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